Faithful

My nephew, it turned out, did not have one hole in his heart. An entire atrial wall was more holes that tissue. The surgery was a success! He is all patched up. God is indeed faithful, but not in the way we expected.

I wrote this prayer a few years back.

"You are not a God who does what we expect. That is one of my favorite things about you, but, Lord, that is also one of the most frustrating things about you. That's alright. Let me lose, Lord, but do not let me lose the lesson. I will trust you in all times, the good and the bad and the in-between. Fill me, and let me be content with you, your love inside of me. I will love deeply and passionately so that I may live life completely. I will take the great risks required for great love and great achievement. Lord, I will live as you live in me: Completely."

God is indeed my favorite frustration. If there is one thing I understand about God, it's that His plan is always more glorious than we could ever expect. We were asking God to close one hole. He may have smiled and did just that. The miracle we were expecting was far smaller than the miracle of that rascal of a baby boy living all this time with his heart so fragile.

God may not do what we expect of Him. That's something that I've often hated in the past, but as I gain wisdom, bit-by-bit, it has become something that I absolutely love about Him. His plan is absolutely perfect. His ways are far greater than ours. He is an amazing Creator, a faithful Father. This is my reality.